I can't believe how long it has been!

This last few weeks have seemed crazier than normal.  I'm sure it really hasn't been that different, but it's funny how our tolerance level in life has such an impact on how we see things and respond.  Every time I thought about getting on here and posting  (which was several times a day) I would feel so stressed, and super overwhelmed.  Especially knowing that on the few posts I have done, I have been spending an average of about 2 to sometimes 3 hours posting. Crazy right?  Even when I thought about writing neat amazing things that are happening to me and my body it seemed too much. Well, I am writing now and it's nothing short of a miracle;)My posts from now on will mostly be short and sweet but much more frequent:)

The past couple of weeks have been frustrating and amazing. Do you want the good news or the bad news first?

Let's start on a positive note shall we?  First of all I feel so much better!  I am stronger and I know it, because I feel it in everything I do. Laundry, walking in the grocery store, wrestling with the kids, sleeping, you name it my life is better in every way.  My hubbs and I went out on a date last night with some dear friends we haven't seen in forever.  The idea of bowling came up. Okay, just a couple of months ago, I never would have wanted to do something like that. It would have been dinner and a movie or dinner and games, or desert and talking and laughing and talking some more.  I didn't feel that way this time.  I was like, "Bowling?"  "Heck yes, that sounds fun!"  So we went bowling and I didn't feel like I was inhibited by my body image or my physical strength or my confidence. We had such a great time! 

Secondly, I have tried on 3 different dresses in the last three weeks that haven't fit me for quite some time. They are all now fitting with plenty of room to spare! That was a very happy moment!  Usually this time of year I'm thinking of what drastic measure I need to take so I don't have to buy the next size up, again.  What a blessing to already be started and heading in the right direction!  I know that I just would not be experiencing these kinds of things with out the help I have been receiving.  My trainer Travis, is a huge piece of this puzzle for  me.  I work out 3 days a week with him and every time it is just amazing.  There was a short period of time in the beginning where I was dreading the workouts like crazy! I was so sore and my frame of mind wasn't yet where it needed to be. I haven't felt like that again since, (although if he reads this he may do something to switch that around)  Also, I have loved my foot zones from Stacey!  I learn so much from her experience and knowledge, and the foot zones have helped me with everything from tummy stuff, to circulation, to muscle soreness.  

Having a Dietitian and a Health coach has been so helpful too.  Loosing weight is such a complex and difficult thing for most people, and to have so many areas of knowlege and experience to draw from is a huge benefit.  Barbie is another part of the equation that is really unique. She does the MRBA testing that measures how your body is doing from the inside.  We have tweaked some things in my diet based on the testing and it is nice to know you can see the changes that are taking place from that perspective as well.

Now for the bad news.... Well, it's February folks!  That means that in the Baxter house, we get to celebrate! One Anniversary, one Valentine's Day, and one Birthday all with in two weeks time!! As much fun as we had celebrating, from a health stand point it hasn't been the best. So, I'm glad to be done with that part of February till next year.  

Oh, and as a last note.  I really have been thinking a lot this month about how grateful I am to have something to keep me coming back for more.  It's so easy when you fall off the wagon to stay off for way too long.  I know it's sounds cliche, but I have been amazed at how each time I fall off for even a moment, when I get back on I am in a different place.  I am changing, I am learning how to deal with this trial in my life. And eventually it will be easy, but right now it's just about getting back on each time I fall and never giving up.  That is where I am really changing and learning.